I recently cut my hair. I only told a few people because I wanted it to be something I did on my own. Like when I pierced my ears 6 months ago. I wanted it to be something I did for myself all by myself.
My friend that cut my hair asked me if I was going to cry or be upset after she cut my hair. And while I felt like I might throw up before I got there I was fine as soon as I walked in. When the hair was cut off I felt free. For a long time I was stuck thinking I could only be the person I had always been. I had always been the girl with long straight hair and that never pierced her ears. Cutting my hair and piercing my ears let me feel how good it is to be free to change who I am. I told my friend that once I decided it was ok to change I felt liberated.
This past year I also started running. Now I am not a fast runner and I am working on my endurance, but I am running. I fought the idea of running for a long time. I felt like everyone was doing it, and let's be honest-I have never been one to do something just because other people are doing it. I didn't want to feel like I was jumping on the band wagon. I decided that that didn't matter and if I was going to fulfill the things on my wish list I needed to get running. I don't think I am to the point where I can say I love running, but I can say that I enjoy it and I love the feeling I get after I am done. I love knowing that I accomplished something all on my own (with a little help from my friend iPod).
As far as the weight loss goes, I reached the 50 pound mark last year. I have kind of taken a break from being super vigilant about it. I figure that if I do my best to eat right and keep exercising it will come off eventually. I don't know if that is a cop out or excuse, but for right now it works.
Speaking of running...I did my first 5k this past weekend. What better way to end my 28th year right? I started out slow with my little Waussie girl and then when she got tired I left her with her daddy and decided I wasn't going to worry about them. I was just going to go and see how I would do. Thankfully my husband was great and knew I wanted to see how I could do. I ended up running most of it and finished in under 45 minutes. I know that isn't the greatest time in the world, but I didn't come in last and I felt so good about myself. I could see the finish line and it surprised me how badly I wanted to finish strong. When I crossed that line no one was there to celebrate with me, but in a way that was for the best. The joy I felt and pride in myself was all I needed and I needed to see that. And I got a shirt so now when I wear it I feel good knowing I earned it and didn't just buy it at the D.I. for a dollar.
So to wrap up the last year I think all I need to say is that it was a year of changes for me. It was a good year and I am going to do everything I can to make sure that year 29 is just as good, if not better!
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| This isn't the most flattering picture of me, but I don't care! |
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| Before and after of my hair |
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